你知道吗

爱情总是趁人没注意时闯进来
让我渐渐爱上了你
明知道大家是不可能的 但我选择继续
明知道永远不可信赖 但我选择相信
明知道终有一天会被伤害 但我无力阻止
明知道会带给我失望 但我心甘情愿
这你知道吗？ do you know that?
这是我非常爱你

This week diary

25th Jan

Today he fall sick he cant go out with me =( Yesterday was my last day working so i wish that today he can go out with me.I so miss him.At night we quarrel again.

26th Jan

A whole new day for me!!Though can forget him dowan to msg him.I cant control myself.I msg to him.Our relationship got turn better but he stil showing his moody msg.I got a new job as kindergarden teacher which i've been fail for 10+ times interview....Oh gosh finally i success.But i use the "lying" method to get that job.I told that boss i will work for long term.I know i'm lying but what to do...If i stil honest for this timei sure wont get employed...SORRY to that boss
I told him this good news but he seems like no response.Hiaz...

27th Jan

Today trying to msg him well but he still show his moody face.The whole afternoon i went to eat laksa and ice kacang(my favourite!!) with yong keong at sungai puyu.Unfortunately he saw his mum(his mum and dad separated) and grandama and 1 more unclei guess was his mum's hubby.Well i think about myself.Why a good marriage must come to "divorce"?why a good couple must come to"break"? Most of my ex also had the same case with is separated family or single parents...Next will it be my turn??choi!!touchwood!
Back home bored again..he stil sick....i chat with my hamster...

28th Jan

Finally come to thursday!! A week is gonna waste like that...monday will start working..hard to meet him lol =(
Today i called up him...he was in training.Does he recover??hohoho~i was a haapy in heart...But at the end we quarrel again.I ask for "breaking" for second time and he just said "ok go ahead".I cant believe this...i cry over again....

29th Jan

Today i called up him again.His tone has changed.He said to me no more religion talking.i guess i should know the result.Everthing will change start from this moment....HAIZ...everything back to the square.I made a big mistake...the story ending similar like my ex.I will made up my mind soon..i decided to go mmu study le...COZ here has nth can hold me down.Goodbye penang soon.

home alone~

“太好了，终于可以放假咯！”

今天是暑假前的最后一堂课。我从床上跳起来直接走进浴室梳洗，把衣着穿上，我就很快地吹着口哨往下楼去。

“奇怪，怎么连个人影都没有？”我犹豫了一会儿。

“今天是我上课的最后一天，老爸应该在家因为他必须载我去学校，老妈呢八点之后才去菜市场，而现在才七点而已叻！“我在一旁碎碎念。

我走进饭厅，桌上竟然完全没有食物，我就从冰箱掏出一杯牛奶来喝然后打算去郊外散个步。

“咔嚓”

门却从外反锁，之后我就往后门打开看看，结果也是一样。我的心跳像火车飞奔那样快，我感到无奈就只好拨个电话给爸妈，没想到电话竟然没有按盘。

“算了，我还是上楼回房休息”心里想着

“气死人,他们竟然把我反锁在家！太过份！”我破口大骂

突然，感觉好像有东西在敲我门，我走出去看，奇怪，没东西啊。我把门关上就回床休息。不久我听到浴室仿佛传来歌声，我颤抖了一会儿，决定拿出勇气走去浴室瞧一瞧。

我看到。。。一个人和我长得一模一样，站在浴室门旁对着我微笑。我吓得屁滚尿流地往楼下冲。然后，我。。。我见到一对双手飘浮在空中正往着我方向飘来。我立即跑进厨房拿出一把刀自我防卫。过了一阵子，似乎没事情发生的，我松了一口气，弯着腰把刀放好。

当我把头抬起来时，我见到一位很年轻的女主人，她的头发长到手腕，看起来很斯文高雅。可惜，最可怕的是她。。。她是没有双脚的！而且还露出尖牙！我失去理智地大步跑进大厅，就在这时刻，我见到一个小女孩坐在我旁边玩着洋娃娃。最恐怖的是。。。她。。。她没有头！！！太荒唐了！我承受不住晕倒了。之后发生什么事我不太清楚。当我醒来时，我就在床上，老爸老妈很担心地陪伴着我。

我非常生气地把他们臭骂一顿因为无断断留我一个人在家，最可恶的是他们竟然把我反锁在家！老巴就很惊讶！

“我接到电话就赶去公司”老爸澄清地说

“我有留字条贴在冰箱给你啊，你没看见吗？”老妈很好奇地问

最奇怪的是，我老妈回家时门却没有被锁上，而且还看到我躺在客厅的地毯上。

之后我把刚才的故事告诉他们而他们却说这只是个幻觉。但是。。。我真的不能不相信啊！唉，也许这真是我的幻觉吧。。。

我把我桌灯打开，往天花板一看，一对尘染血的双眼凝视着我。。。

happy mothers day

Today is mother's day,well...i din celebrate with her cause she got work...haha...anyway,i got buy some food treat her eat...

But,happy mothers day had turned to a sour day cause i did quarrel with my fren(group members)...the story was started like this:

Teacher gave us economy project,there got 4 quest. My group members consist of 3 ppl including me.Another is A and B. Well,that time teacher gave us the quest, my members was absent, to avoid trouble,i did it first(cause teacher only give us 1 week time).My fren A which was absent had give me a call asking what she need to do and i told her to finish complete another 2 quest which i also duno to do. Because of this, C did nothing,bt nvm,teacher gave another kuantittatif quest so i asked C to do,then everyone is equal...fair...

When i asked C to do,i manage C could do al properly,typing ,print out and could give me on monday,cause tuesday must hand in le!!Because C had called me on before that the saturday,she told me her printer was spoil,i und,for me is ok,so i do finish it by myself...

Soon the project had settle and hand in to teacher...but came to presentation,B incharge of printing and i asked C to incharge of write it in mahjong paper. Actually i could do it all by using powerpoint, but i feel that C like doing nothing(not din do at all,she got do,i know her's effort,but she did just like do nothing) so i purposely asked her to write in mahjong paper,so it is fair....

next wed is our presentation le,C told me to bring all the things such as marker pen and documents to pa tuition on sunday,i brought it but she absent.So i ask her fren will she coming to sch on monday,and yet,her fren said "no"....well,that time i got a bit angry,y she so irresponsible...then i sms her asking her what she want,why she so irresponsible....in proper tone...and she replied in an angry tone.she scolded me i 'm the one who are irresponsible...never discuss with her what to do and how to do....AND said i so clever of coz can do all,but clever also must discuss with her!aCtually,not i dowan to discuss with her,sometime i came to sch she didnot and when i absent from sch she came to sch..how am i going to discuss with her in this situation(no faith at all)She also said that the quantitatif quest she got do and brin it on monday,i und,i not blaming her not do cause she said her printer spoil...tat why i did all myself.IN CONCLUSION,I JUST WANTHER TO WRITE IT IN MAHJONG PAPER,THAT ALL....

i dowan her to do last minute work and later cant finish it...tat why i got a bit angry...i hope she could und,i not scolding her for no reason...and i din discuss with her cause of that situation i mentioned above not i clever not need to discuss...i prefer easier work hate trouble...hope she could und...

Blood Donation Campaign in my school

Blood Donation Campaign was organised by Leo Club and Pasukan Pengakap Kelana at my school, Smk St.Mark at 18 April 2009 started from 8.00am to 2.00pm.

Well, i was the helper and also the donour too...started from 9am onward, quite a number of people were came including my friends too...Gui Ling,Meng Hui,Jia Lik and 1 unknown guy...Haha(paiseh, i dun really can remember his name) Besides, i was quite surprised when i saw Christine and Shee Yee volunteerly to donate blood. First of all,i would like to thank them for :

1.THEIR BRAVENESS SHOULD BE A MODEL TO EVERYONE

2. HELP US TO SUCCESS THIS CAMPAIGN

As i mention earlier that i was a donour too...However at the end it not comes up as i have been planned...sobs...why?guess everyone should know...i was 43kg but the min "kuota" to donate blood is 45kg. I damn despair with my weight(I unable to help needy people!!)

Next, donation of foodstuff and daily needs also been held on the same day. We managed to collect all the stuff which worth RM3000 and money RM450. Therefore,i very proud of myself and thank all my friends who got lending a helping hand in this event.

After back from the event, i went to pc fair with Lay Ern. The journey was quite bored, and unrealisingly, i became a "bulb light" between lay ern and HIM...coz her fren also going....But nvm, along the journey, i met my ns friend(I not bored this time) which i nearly forget his name le~ "WEI HAN=Hei Ren" He told me that i had changed a lot :





1.look very thin

2.tension
3.tired
4.less smiling

5.eyebag very deep

Wuwuwuw~ izzit true?

Mood Damn Horrible

Today my mood turn to sour again,because of my fucking ex stuff!!!!.Today i went to his blog, saja want to know wat had happened to him recently...maybe i got a bit worry him especially his exam.My fren told me that he had failed 3 papres and going to resit next monday.Those who had failed more than 5 papres,there are not allowed to procced to next year(or next sem)....haha,forget le~

Due to my kindness worried,i went to see his blog to check out...I realise that he kept bullied by his housemates.Got 1 time,as usual he back from class,he wanted to online,manatau he housemates purposely banned him not allow him online.Then he went to ask him housemates,and yet,their housemates showing their hao liao cool face kept saying dunno to him...He was foolish by their housemates,so i got a bit angry...and sympathy

After this i proceed to read his another section,when i read about the part that he wrote about me,at first i got a bit happy,cant believe he wil write about me...as i continue to read,all he wrote is talking my bad words...I damn damn damn angry!!!!Hence, i straight pick up my phone and sms him scold him...all the words that came out is totally FUCK!!!....foul...rude...hao liao...think himself is fairy...shit la....so like to say my bad word,go and spread to whole world!!tell all the people you are fucking good and how worse or bad I am.


Now my mood is totally mess up with his stupid,noob and fucking foul words!!!Spoil my mood already...no mood to study..later somemore got economy tuition,still thinking whether i should go or not.Haiz...because of my idiot kindness,spoil my mood whole day...

But nvm la,today i also quite happy,coz yesterday i juz bought a 2nd hand sony ericsson Z610,to put in my maxis simcard....Actually this hp is my best best friend bought for me...haha,i cant tell who is him...is a secret maze that everyone dunno the answer...

Untitled heart-broken

Whenever i hear stpm this word i will feel scare.Today my pa teacher (pn.manjit) gave us an essay as an exam to test over our writing ability. After finish marking our essay she scolded us with disappointed:"kamu punya isi sangat lemah sangat childishnot mature as what a form 6 student should write.You all really no cure.never study.pity you all." I very sad with what she siad to us.I really got study but is other subject.I have no idea coz there are too many chapter waiting for me to read and somemore teacher alwz gv us a sudden exam.I going to crazy....

Besides this today i was scolded by my form teacher too.The reason is i din hand in the "kertas kedudukan kelas" to her on time.But overall is not my fault too...i duno why maybe she was scolded by hm too...when the time she gave me that "kertas" and asked every student to check for the marks.at the same time is economy period.the whole class will going to bilik multimedia.and yet that economy teacher oso quite a difficult-handle teacher.she dont allows us to do other thing in her class therefore the "kertas " i keep in my drawer and we plan to check it after her period.Due to this matter.igot scold by my form teacher.Coz she want to record down the marks in the record book and hand in to hm sign but i din gv her earlier then igot scold.Wat la that teacher...very irreasonble...economy teacher not allow we do other thing in class and she keep asking me be fast be fast...how can i be fast??She though that i'm a GOD izzit?I'm juz a NORMAL human ok?Not only thi.she somemore scolded me saying thay i not an effective person.PLEASE LA.

I'm not the only post for monitor ok.i oso a secretary for leo club and treasurer for pengakap kelana.everything i oso must be involved...there are still many thing for me to do.activities planning for blood donation will be held on 18april...taip letter..meet leo advisor..if not i wil get scold by tjem again..and pengakap kelana account oso not yet settle for feb and march due to stupid indian(alwz said 4got to brin yuran)...now account become negative and i got blamed adi!!!not only this.dinner payment for april is my turn to collect again...Can anyone und me??i got to collect everyday and yet why they cant pay me on time??i not very free wan ok!!!!If cant collect all on time then i wil get scold again....I want CRAZY ALREADY LA...If you are in my shoes...

The first encounter and look,
The first touch,
The first kiss, the happiness,
All that was the prove of love
You had taught me alot of thing,
No matter what happen,
You will always in my heart,
Because you are my,
First love and only one.


Adapted from "Kung Kee Guan specially for his beloved"

Life is not that perfect as i think

Today after i met my pastor and what he have told me,i felt very sad and chaos...
he said, in this age we shouldnt have any boy girl relationship(BGS), because this might give disadvantage to us. I agree with what he said.Because of what he said to me, i got to make a decision either give up him or just ignore it...i couldnt make up my mind...i very very sad,i knew this will hapen if i choose to meet my pastor, that's why sometime i try to stay away from him not because he is bad...is i dowan to face the fact that i must break up with him.

Life is full of wondering and unknown...my pastor said,if a boy go and find a girl, is meant that the boy want to have *** with her, i dont really believe this statement, izzit true?can anyone tell me the answer? "My bf is not this kind of guy"...but he said "he is still toung that's why he never think of ***, but after he grows mature, for sure he will think of ***".Really?izzit true?comfirm guy is like that?Are you sure?

I dunno which decision should i made, give up the most i love due to other party ask to do so, should i follow his advice?I really dowan give him, please understand if i let go you....

Today is the saddest day for me...

Seloka 6A2 - SMK St.Mark

Marilah pembaca mendengar cerita
Pasal budak-budak kelas 6A2
Banyak ragam kelas ceria
Itulah kelas perakaunan tingkatan 6

Satu ketua, seperti perdana menteri
Mari ke sekolah sibuk sini dan sana
Kerja diberi bertimbun tinggi
Meow Ning itulah orangnya

Rathinaa pulak penolongnya
Pergi dan balik hanya buku pemantauan
Mintak duit sebulan sekali
Lay Theng kita orang punya bendahari

Sorang pengawas Christine namanya
Cakap "BI" fulamak terrenya
Kelas cantik ada penghias
Shu Fen adalah wakilnya

Diam-diam ubi berisi
Pheak Chen nama diberi
Rambut kemas bak pramugari
Kalau cakap mesti tak henti

Teman sejatinya Pei Pei
Kuih cina pelbagai jenis dilelongnya
Shee Yee gurau kalah king kong
Kalau marah, semuanya lari

Li Bee amat suka kebersihan
Sampah sikit pun dia tak tahan
Time tugas mesti ikut arahan
Kelas terkotor tidak akan jadi kenyataan

Kalau gaduh WWF dialah orangnya
Taekwando kita Qian Weii namanya
Rambutnya straight ala-ala nyonya
Choon Khim agen fashion ternama

Hui Lian pendiam orangnya
Bila tak faham tak mau tanya
Suk Ting selalu tak faham
Kalau bertanya bulat matanya

Hai Huat rajin sekali
16 bidadari semua dia miliki
tersengih-sengih sampai nampak gusi
Kalau bukan Ming Hoon siapa lagi

Nak kata kembar tak juga
Hoay Fang, Sook Fun diberi nama
Time belajar bukan main seriusnya
Bila ditanya mesti ternganga

Kalau ekonomi Pn.Fauziah nombor satu
Parlimen MCA mesti dia kalah
Denda duit kemahirannya
Menjadi idola kelas 6A2

"Seloka ini dituju kepada guru ekonomi tersayang saya,Pn Fauziah Binti Abdullah yang akan bertukar ke sekolah St.Michael di Ipoh pada 18 Februari 2009"

人生的旅程

人生就像一场连续剧

总是有说不完的故事

有喜怒哀乐生老病死

里面故事的所有主角

没有任何演技或剧本

就是最真实最精彩的

挫折与失败

往往总是人生的绊脚石

有时候他们就像琉璃苣

带领我们接受新的挑战

但要是怎么的一不小心

就踏上一失足成千古恨

孤单与寂寞

使我们察觉世界没有爱

蝴蝶花朵会在一旁哭泣

死神的脚步好像接近我

自杀仇恨都是它的朋友

这样的人生已没有意义

幸福与爱情

是每一个人都所渴望的

恋爱的滋味有甜也有苦

爱情的最高峰就是幸福

幸福是因为缘分的安排

是人生少不了的巧克力

离别与期待

就像我们一般的火车站

上了火车就期待下一站

每一个人下不同的车站

离别的心情是免不了的

所谓聚散就是因此而来

人生旅程是那么复杂

因为今日不知明日事

不是我们能所掌控的

凤凰花开的日子虽短

它也尝试绽放得很美

我们又不何尝呢？

爱情课程

爱情是我们人生当中最难懂的一课
爱情这一课只能靠感觉不能死背
每个人学习的时间和得到的知识也不一样
有人害怕不及格所以不敢尝试
有人自信满满地却被伤得很深
没有人能逃过这一课
否则永远都不会及格

爱情 既是天堂 既是地狱
也可以比喻像是春天或秋天
甚至连科学家也无法解释
也不例明在国家法则
爱情这一课没有厚厚的教学课本
唯有亲身体验或是命中注定
没有快速的读法只能用一生磨练
什么时候才能知道自己是否及格
只能等你走完人生最后一刻
这才是成绩放榜的时候了

命中注定我爱你

我一直在奔跑一直寻找

走到了无人知的陌生地

天有点黑 风有点大

狼的叫声叫我不知所措

就在这时刻的我

已不小心踏入爱情陷阱

我停止奔跑和不再寻找

接受了敞开我心的爱情

你给了我琉璃苣象征勇气

远远的超越自己所不能做

因为旧情人给的思念

比陌生人给的还难忘

时间流失让我更加珍惜你

传说你走渐远幸福会解约

我要让你知道你将会是

我人生中的一首插曲

因我已找到了自己的未来

不能重返的爱情

白日梦就在眼睛一挣开就消失了
而我也从这白日梦醒悟
不可能重返的爱情
也成了一丝丝的记忆

等待一个不可能回来的人
犹如一位即将脱胎的孕妇
在九个月后
婴儿总不会出生

已分手的爱情再也回不去从前
我们又何必停留在哪儿
倒不如关心当前
或许明天会更好

我的离去已成了解脱
然而这爱情的生命
已到了保存期限
再也挽不回了

暗恋

一个人静静地聆听旋律
脑海出现了未来的假象
我控制不了对你的记忆
你我曾共有最好的时光


时间仿佛我们的血流动
你心里应该不只是陌生
我没有向前求证的决议
因为我想多偷望你一眼


暗恋让我受尽一切委屈
我肩膀没有勇气和力量
何时该继续何时该放弃
就让那单恋的回忆上锁


金黄的阳光照亮了早晨
白云建立了你我的开始
回忆里富有我们的笑颜
我希望这时刻能够永久
因为我真的真的喜欢你

错误的开始

从一开始我们就注定上错巴士
一旦上错巴士我们就到不了我们想要的车站
虽然途中充满欢乐笑声
但我们都心知总会有分开的一天


在那漫长的路途中
我们都学会了珍惜和放手
但珍惜和放手应该用在什么时候
我们都用错了
没人指示我们对的步伐


美丽的东西总是那么地短暂
错过了这一站就很难再回到从前
下错车站也导致我们见面的机会也没了
也许我们的缘分已到了尽头
再也挽不回那份感情


你选择了放手
我掉落的眼泪你看不见
我知道你知道我在想什么
我已察觉但只是你还装不懂


放手真的能让你和我开心吗
还是这是你不敢面对的现实
我们再也没机会见面了因为大家已下错车站
和我也必须选择放手了
因为是我一厢情愿

Friendship eternity

There is a sky,birds flying across over
There is a rainbow,for you and me
A beautiful sunrise,eternally

Dun hide yourself in a corner
You have my place to stay
The days we had
The songs we sang together
You can see the happy sunshine

Sorrow is going to say goodbye
A new day has come
So keep going with your dream
Chasing tomorrow sunrise
This spirit can never die

Sun will shine my friend
Seeing you,
Challenge you,
Fooling you,
You never be alone

See my smile my friend
I won't leave you alone
You have guts to believe
You were my stunning
Beautify my life and my world

From the first we met
You meant to be my friend
That is what a friendship be

寻找自己

我仰望着蔚蓝天空
一群候鸟自由地飞翔
我试着与它们一同飞奔
但我忘了我只是一个凡人


活在一个现实生活
我不停地让自己忙碌
为了逃避面对不了的事
这样或许可以是个新的开始


我像断了线的风筝
失去了该前进的方向
伤心绝望常浮现在脑海
我再也看不见镜子中的我


走过了世界的尽头
才发现世界多姿多彩
我多么想时间可以停止
来慢慢医治我故障的心灵


我到处寻找真正的我
我要把我的彩虹带回来
不管一天或一年或许永远
我都会试着找寻另一片天空

missing you

Night
Call upon me
I keep thinking of you


I wanna to run
Run away from this world
But i won't allowed
Coz we had so many moments here


Looking forward to the year
It's going to be sad
Horror dominating my soul again
Your memory haunts me still...
And i hardly cry anymore


After you're gone
Leaving me alone
A trail of tears flowing down my cheeck
I don't want to say goodbye
I wish this eternal pain would heal
To become the true of me